Yahuh, and I said I was going to update this thing more often?? Well there are a few things going on right now... so in a nutshell:
· I'm going to meet up w/ Casey tomorrow · some other boy issues... · midterms · this Glade plug in is smelling like soggy Fruit Loops (sorry, random though!) · NIC's network in the dorm won't allow computers with Windows XP to log on, so because of that I'm using my family's NetZero dial-up internet *boo*...
So tomorrow after I get back from Spokane, and finish up on some homework, I'll whip up a larger post!
Holy freaking shit its been what... almost 3 weeks!! My last post was on the 15th, and actually 2 days beforehand I met up with Casey (guy up here in Spokane)... I'll slap something up about that... soon...
My guy situation is still a drama production... guys saying that they're not looking for b/fs (no biggie, I'm not really looking for one either right now), guys who are just plain asses (see below for one example) and some who are just flat out not interested in me. I also got a work study job in the SUB, and an actual paying job *yay* here at the dorms. Nothing too fancy, but hey I get some dough out of it. And I PROMISE to update this thing more!! I've been hellishly busy lately, and when I'm not I just dont have the modivation to update this thing *fie on you Mike, fie on you!!*
Now for one of the guys whos being an ass with me... Well I talked to Jesse on AOL a bit ago... and needless to say he's really mad at me, just because I was being blunt (perhaps a bit too blunt) with him...
*Jesse's SN* (7:59:15 PM): hi JunoSurvivor (7:59:19 PM): hey :-) JunoSurvivor (7:59:51 PM): got all my homework done *woohoo* Jesse (8:00:02 PM): kewl JunoSurvivor (8:01:26 PM): friends still there? Jesse (8:01:35 PM): damnit you lil mother fucker! call me Jesse (8:01:37 PM): sorry Jesse (8:01:37 PM): lol Jesse (8:01:39 PM): i hadda say it Jesse (8:01:40 PM): no Jesse (8:01:44 PM): they just left a lil while ago JunoSurvivor (8:01:56 PM): hehe... I see... Jesse (8:02:08 PM): call me call me call me call me JunoSurvivor (8:02:31 PM): actually... theres somehting I wanted to talk to you on AOL about, if you can stay on Jesse (8:02:48 PM): oh Jesse (8:02:48 PM): ok Jesse (8:02:50 PM): what is it? JunoSurvivor (8:03:09 PM): and I'm being hellishly blunt when I say this... k Jesse (8:03:36 PM): oh shit Jesse (8:03:57 PM): you never wanna talk to me again? JunoSurvivor (8:04:03 PM): pretty much the main reason why I dont see us being together is that... basically you're not bf material for me Jesse (8:04:42 PM): you never wanna talk to me again... in other words JunoSurvivor (8:04:52 PM): no, thats not what I'm saying Jesse (8:05:00 PM): yea.. Jesse (8:05:01 PM): it is Jesse (8:05:05 PM): im gonna go JunoSurvivor (8:05:10 PM): I'm saying that we can be friends, but I really dont see us as bfs Jesse signed off at 8:05:10 PM. Previous message was not received by Jesse because of error (8:05:10 PM): User Jesse is not available.
Jesse signed on at 8:07:37 PM. Jesse (8:07:48 PM): i would have thought you woulda blovked me JunoSurvivor (8:08:01 PM): no... I was going say that that we can be friends, but I really dont see us as bfs JunoSurvivor (8:08:18 PM): and I wouldnt block you b/c you're one of the few ppl in the area who actually talk to me Jesse (8:08:36 PM): well Jesse (8:09:08 PM): i dont know if i wanna talk to you anymore mike... sayin that im not bf material when ive had more relationships than youll EVER have just isnt right Jesse (8:09:13 PM): hows that for blunt JunoSurvivor (8:09:24 PM): and what I said is the main reason why I was hesitant on you giving me a bj JunoSurvivor (8:10:05 PM): I'm sure that you'll be a great bf with someone else, but maybe not w/ me Jesse (8:10:11 PM): mike Jesse (8:10:20 PM): when i said i wanted to give you head, i was being asracastic JunoSurvivor (8:10:32 PM): k well I didnt know that JunoSurvivor (8:11:23 PM): but I dont want you to blow up on me b/c of what I said.... JunoSurvivor (8:11:52 PM): I mean its best that I tell you now than to tell you later on, if and when things did become more serious that what they already are JunoSurvivor (8:13:34 PM): I'm not holding it against you, and I hope that you'll do the same Jesse (8:16:22 PM): mike Jesse (8:16:30 PM): what is there to hold against you Jesse (8:16:35 PM): its a small town Jesse (8:16:43 PM): with few people Jesse (8:16:49 PM): and limited gay guys Jesse (8:17:02 PM): and im leaving it soon anyway JunoSurvivor (8:17:04 PM): I mean hold what I said against me Jesse (8:17:09 PM): so why would i care JunoSurvivor (8:20:39 PM): :-\ k now I feel really odd... Jesse (8:21:09 PM): you feel odd how? JunoSurvivor (8:21:29 PM): I just feel like youre really pissed off at me now :-\ Jesse (8:22:14 PM): hmm, i wonder why JunoSurvivor (8:22:51 PM): c'mon... ppl back home have done it to me too... I dont totally forget about them but I just keep what they said in mind JunoSurvivor (8:23:16 PM): the first person... the very first person... that I met online who lived in Boise did htat to me w/o ever talking or meeting me in person Jesse (8:23:40 PM): uh, mike Jesse (8:23:45 PM): b4 you go making assuptions Jesse (8:23:52 PM): maybe you should let me tell you this Jesse (8:23:59 PM): im not mad cuz of what you said Jesse (8:24:03 PM): i mad cuz you said it Jesse (8:24:10 PM): peple have said it to me b4 Jesse (8:24:24 PM): i wouldnt be mad if you had said it in a different way Jesse (8:24:25 PM): but Jesse (8:24:32 PM): sayung that im not bf materail Jesse (8:24:34 PM): thats like Jesse (8:24:38 PM): a killer for me Jesse (8:24:40 PM): so JunoSurvivor (8:24:43 PM): k well I really didnt know how to say it Jesse (8:24:55 PM): think about what you say, unless you don tmind getting your face beat in Jesse (8:25:16 PM): its really simple Jesse (8:25:19 PM): all you say JunoSurvivor (8:25:19 PM): its something thats been on my mind for a few days, and I really didnt know how to say it w/o being so blunt Jesse (8:25:28 PM): "i dont like you that way" JunoSurvivor (8:25:50 PM): k... well I dont like you that way Jesse (8:26:02 PM): dont worry JunoSurvivor (8:26:05 PM): as a friend yes, but not anything more than that Jesse (8:26:12 PM): you made that VERY clear JunoSurvivor (8:27:22 PM): well... I'm sorry that what/how I said it struck you wrong, but still I though it was something that I needed to get off my chest before anything ever did happen between us JunoSurvivor (8:27:56 PM): and I wasnt my intention to piss you off, but I didn;t know how a gentle way for me to tell you would be JunoSurvivor (8:30:00 PM): I wasnt aware of what all had happened in your past, and I;m sorry for what did happen and what I just did JunoSurvivor (8:30:18 PM): and its not your fault for not telling me because its none of my business JunoSurvivor (8:30:53 PM): but I just dont know the threshold that ppl have, so sometimes when I'm being bluntly honest, ppl do get mad at me JunoSurvivor (8:31:42 PM): and to be honest Brandon told me the same thing, but he said it even more blunt that what I did a few minutes ago Jesse (8:31:45 PM): your being blunt is nothing compared to me being blunt JunoSurvivor (8:34:46 PM): if you want to hate me for the rest of my life thats up to you, but thats really all I hvae to say Jesse (8:36:40 PM): k, DID I SAY I WAS GONNA HATE YOU? JunoSurvivor (8:36:57 PM): no, but its just a gut feeling that I have JunoSurvivor (8:37:38 PM): and I said "if"... I never said you were Jesse (8:39:21 PM): are you gonna get technical with me? Jesse (8:39:26 PM): i really dont that would be a good idea Jesse (8:39:31 PM): cuz then i really WILL hat you Jesse (8:39:33 PM): hate JunoSurvivor (8:39:45 PM): I'm not being technical Jesse (8:39:55 PM): JunoSurvivor (8:27:55 PM): and I said "if"... I never said you were JunoSurvivor (8:40:51 PM): yes I know I said that JunoSurvivor (8:41:52 PM): ugh... now I really feel like an ass... JunoSurvivor (8:43:11 PM): ...Jesse? Auto Response from *Jesse's SN*: IF YOUR CAMERON OR CHRIS, CALL ME!!! IM WATCHING QUEEN OF THE DAMNED, SO... YEA... just CALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
